When the Past becomes too heavy for the heart to carry !

In life, moments are constantly changing and, each second turns the future to present and the present to past. But in this confluence of events, the burdens of the second past sometimes remains with the next second of the future. Now, if one was to harbor all of these in the vast web of our minds, then when is enough, enough?

The fairytale of “leaving the past behind” has been told to every soul, at least to those who have felt a moment of hurt, a moment of silence tied to regret, a moment of love lost in a poll of loss, a moment of endless “had I known’s”, a moment of flowing tears as we walk away, a moment when we wish that moment never passed away, a moment when nostalgia seems to be the best place, a moment of sadness and a moment of mistake. Now if you are human with blood flowing through your veins and oxygen swamping your lungs, you definitely fall into one or more of those categories…

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Abigail Van Buren once wrote
“If we could sell our experiences for what they cost us, we’d all be millionaires”.

But then I think to myself, what Kind of riches would we have? Definitely not all mint notes, for there would always be those blotched notes-- more for some than others.

The past could be a beautiful experience you know. I mean reminiscing times spent with a loved one, or events that tested the elasticity of our smile. The past could also be a sour grape on the taste buds of our life. Draw up a list of times when u just felt like giving yourself a hard knock on the softest part of your head because of that silly mistake you cant take back or days when you think it is time for God to take your sorry butt of planet earth because of all the hurt you feel, soon you’d find yourself needing a whole library to store your list.
Some mistakes leave their mark just like not all toothaches have the same pang. And from such mistakes we are usually told to “MOVE ON” by our shrink, friend, parents, or some random stranger who happens to be so unlucky as to hear you spill your heart at an unguarded hour .

My qualms lies in the question-- Do we ever really forget?

My answer-- NO.

So what is the problem you may ask?

Well the problem is that, people always tell us to forget and act like it never happened.. No generalizations here, but even the most motivational speakers would urge us to deal with problems and forget them, because they slow us down. I like the “facing the issue part”, as for “forgetting” , not so much.

Why?

Because I think that’s not possible.

Prove me wrong!

If you so much as attempt to tell me how this can be done?
I can guarantee you that I would be able to prick your minds and unveil your hypocrisies. And bring to the fore front, the mistakes that you should have called bygones that still hunt your thought, and I don’t have to be your friend or a fan of yours or a stalker to tell them to you…. That’s because it is present in our every doing. “Our actions of today are shaped more of past mistakes of yesterday than the absence of them”.. If you believe that, then you definitely agree with me, irrespective of what your rigid side says.

So my resolution is: we should think about our mistakes till we can think about them no more; Mourn our losses till we can cry no more; Absorb the pain till we become numb; beat our emotions till we start to heal them; hate ourselves for what we did till we start to love ourselves for what we can do. Only then can we truly deal with past mistakes. Trying to forget them is an impossible and time wasting act of idiocy. Why try to sink a rock when we can climb on it. As we know, iodine hurts more than the actual cut, but after some time it cools and heals the wound.
It is bravery, to live in self truth and cowardice to bask in self denial. Consume your own soul in the fires of past mistakes for they save you from having to do it over again.

WHAT TO DO WITH ALL THE GIBERISH?

If you were born in this generation-- globalization babies, you would agree with me that there is almost anything and everything in terms of opinions. Just name it ! no matter how ambiguous and abstract you might think of certain issues, I guarantee you that there are opinion bands behind them. This "galleria of all" as i like to call it has been made even more apparent and accessible via the technological eye of the Internet.....That said, what do you do with it all, how do you weed out the senseless from piles of senseless.....for one man's/woman's meat is another's poison. No wonder, more than ever before we are been housed in a generational time when opinions are as polarized as ever and are as inconsistent too.... This new euphoria has challenged all that we claim to be personal fundamental thoughts......So I have an idea lets scrap the notion of rigid opinions(that we usually all claim to have) and have another modified form of it called--the rigidity of change....